When I was a child, I felt everything everyone else was feeling. My mom, my dad, my sisters, classmates, strangers on the street. I felt the inherent connection of all beings and the infinite expanse of the universe through wild, out of body experiences.
These intuitive channels were connecting me to a universal source of wisdom, love and compassion. But I didn’t know it then. In fact, little nine year old me was overwhelmed, afraid, and emotionally distraught. I couldn’t contain it all. And didn’t understand what was happening—I thought there was something wrong with me.
And so, for many years I felt out of place, lost in how to activate these gifts. I soaked up others’ emotions and brought them to the surface, and became easily confused between what belonged to me what to someone else. I dedicated my energy towards making other people feel better, so I would feel better, too. I believed I needed to prove myself worthy by helping other people.
I trained as a psychotherapist, believing this was my path as an emotional healer. I immensely enjoyed my studies! Here I learned about the wisdom of the unconscious, the shadow, and the power of dreams to be the messenger of our deepest desires, fears and wisdom. But as I put theory into practice I ended up overwhelmed by feelings of unworthiness and shame. I burned myself out in just three years.
Disheartened, I wandered down other paths that were not my own, searching for someone who would tell me my worth, guide me and show me the way. I turned my back on the “helping” career and ended up in marketing. But this left me feeling cold, detached from myself and spiritually depleted.
I realized that all along my career, for over ten years, I had been pretending to be someone I was not, and readily and easily became the person I believed the other person wanted me to be. I didn’t believe I was worthy of being the real me.
So, who was I really? I would need to unlearn who I believed myself to be in order to discover who I really was.
- I unlearned that my sensitivity was a burden.
- I unlearned that I was responsible for other people’s feelings.
- I unlearned that others knew more about me than I did.
- I unlearned that my unhappiness was my fault.
I had to learn to listen—really listen—to myself. I had to trust my own inner guidance. I knew then that I was being called to create my own unique path and carve my own peg. There was no blueprint created for me. There was no one way for me to prove my worthiness–I had to believe it for myself.
I began to deepen into my purpose through opening channels for intuitive self-discovery. Along the way I also learned that to transform my own life, I needed to create intentions that stuck and manifested change, love and embrace myself fully, including my shadows, hold sacred my inner child, learn how to ask the right questions, trust and surrender to the unknown, and be open to any answer, any possibility.
As soon as I embraced this new path, I began connecting with people all over the world who were searching for a similar revelation: they were facing big changes and opportunities in their lives, but they were too scared to embrace them, and not trusting in their own courage and worthiness. They, too, were searching for validation and answers outside of themselves.
I began offering guidance to them through the coaching techniques I had learned, and in my own methods of intuitive insight and discovery. As I did, I realized that the best ways for me to empower my clients to discover their true worth was to provide them with the tools and create safe, sacred containers where the truth is free to break through.
Together, my clients and I embrace the truth, dive into the discovery process, listen and feel deeply, and activate inner expansion with our souls leading the way.